最怕的事情。还是发生了。
Ya. The promotional status for everyone in pj jc1 are shown. And im quite surprisingly RETAINED. I feel surprised, a little too. I was on the bus when michelle send me that sms.
'The following students are to go to LT3. Huifang, michelle, hilda, christine, liboon, felicia. Kash and Sam go Lt1. the rest go form class.'
Then immediately i knew
200% that im RETAINING. This method of declaring to us our status really NOT BAD. Able to let us know IMMEDIATELY whether we are promoting or not. Luckily my WHOLE CLIQUE ALL NEVER PROMOTE BUT RETAINED. REALLY. The 4 GIRLS. Its like we already plan on this. The minute we stepped into the LT, i can see some very VERY LONELY SINGLES, some couples, and some BLACK FACES. im so lucky i got MICHELLE! WTH. Tick our names (my name really is there :( ) sat down, then even up to 9.15 ppl are still strolling in.
I think we are going bonkers. CAUSE I FEEL AT EASE. And some groups are SMILING LAUGHING. SIAO LAH. Then Mr chue say MRS TAN going to talk to us. SHe came at 9.17. Actually her talk is VERY MOTIVATING and nice. say we are fortunate to be retained cause next year even more students are going to be in. But she say this chance is to be chosen seriously, cause they dun want to see REPEAT students failing as GUYS will definitely go NS STRAIGHT without any jc or poly certs. DAMN BAD.
Then like 9.35, abt to tok finish to us. Then some ppl still coming in when teacher say can go. Then i saw the door to LT open. See shaun weitian and gabriel. WTH. come and see us . see how terrible we are in a state of. WTH. Then see their results. PASSED. PASSED. PASSED. feel a ball of jealousy? emerging inside. hai. I just need my PHY! IT'S A S! IF IT'S E! I WILL BE PROMOTED! ARGH...
Went to the canteen see the others. left to eat with michelle. i think we dun really want to sit too much with those passed classmates. ITS A TORTURE. We go walk walk around LOT 1. i went buy diary, my 4TH ONE. and walked around, ROAMED AROUND. i can feel we dun want to go home very much. cause i dun want to go home feel miserable. want to go around with michelle.SHAN SHAN XIN. Met HUIYI and FANGQING at the video shop. tell them im changing cca at last. if can to pj live the keyboard. new surroundings.they say ok lor nvm. :/
Then at long last at 11, finally realised we need to go home. FACE THE REALITY. TELL OUR PARENTS. WALK WALK WALK. REACH THE MRT. GOT IN. bye. good luck.
I think i dun want go home not because im afraid of telling my status to my parents and siblings. I think i dun want go home alone. cause my REN ZHU de tears will finally drop. Really. in the train. dunno if ppl around see me keep rubbing my eyes or not and making sniffing sounds. then got home. finally broke down when tell me sis. BROKE DOWN OUT LOUD. THUNDERSTORM. WITH LIGHTNING. haha wa my gp really not bad. so good description.
Now my eyes like pig eyes. RED. and when any emotions wanting to come out as tears, my eyes will be very VERY SUAN. PAIN. cannot cry too much. then i when to update the remaining ppl in my class. YEAH! LEFT 20 PPL IN 07S17! 13 BOYS, 7 GIRLS. not bad for them, but i think next year they will feel something missing from the class. LIKE A ROW OF 4 GIRLS SITTING AT FRONT ROW. LIKE FUNNY LIBOON NOT AVAILABLE TO PRESENT FUNNY GP PRESENTATIONS. like sam not around for them to tease anymore.like felicia, kash disappear from class room.NEXT YEAR. at least i will not miss them as much cause they will be the one missing the missing person not the missing person misssing themselves. AM I TOKING SENSE HERE? HAHA O WELL..
I will surely miss them. and i realised (wat a laugh) that my class is not disbanded at all. ITS I GET DISBANDED FROM MY CLASS. TATS ALL. no big deal... Btw im taurus ar.. unable to adapt to new environments too fast.. dun blame me if im too chi dun(slow)...
